Thursday, August 25, 2011

Going to Work in Santo Domingo. 8/25/11

Dear Family and Friends,
It's been a great week. Today has been our Preparation Day, so we went to the temple and also went on a tour. We saw the oldest church in this hemisphere, the home of Christopher Columbus's son, and some other things, with pictures enclosed. The highlight of my week was when they let us out of the temple grounds (the CCM is on temple grounds) and we walked to the Santo Domingo University. Then they set us loose on the poor unsuspecting students. For two hours we got to practice making contacts. The people here are so nice, and were more than happy to talk to us and let us practice our spanish with them. I was so afraid at first, but I was surprised that we could understand a large majority of what was said. They were all shocked when we told them we had only been studying spanish for 4 weeks.
The classroom is a little bit frustrating for me, because they threw all the kids together, regardless of where they were in their spanish studies. Also, we have 2 elders that are going on english speaking missions, so for 3 weeks all the meetings are in english, then we get latin missionaries and make the switch. It's pretty much up to me to create a lesson plan for my companion and I, and make sure we are learning something new each day. The teachers here don't know what we did or didn't learn in Provo, and have been starting at square one. I'm sure its helpful for others though, and it causes me to be a little more proactive, instead of waiting for the teachers. They are more of coaches I guess.
I've had quite a few interesting spiritual experiences as well. For instance, we watched a video of Elder Holland speaking to the Provo missionaries about a year ago. At the end he talked about the last chapter of John, in which the Savior has died, and the apostles (I literally just typed apóstales and had to delete) went back to the only thing they really new how to do, which was fish. The whole night they don't catch a single thing, and then the Savior comes on the shore (but they don't know its him) and tells them to cast their net on the other side of the boat. They catch so many fish that they can't haul in the net, and John immediately says "it's him" and Peter just jumps overboard. Eventually after they eat and what not Jesus asks Peter 3 times if he loves Him, and if so, then to feed His sheep. Elder Holland put it this way "I've already asked you to cast down your nets and follow me once, and now I'm doing it again. Don't make me do it a third time. If you TRULY love me then feed my sheep. You can't turn around and go back to life the way it was before"
When I heard these words I swear it felt like Elder Holland was right there in the room speaking as if it was just a Personal Priesthood Interview with him and I. Those words went straight to my heart and I was flooded with the spirit. I have been praying every night as hard and intent as I can, telling the Lord I love him right before I close. So when he said that I just knew it was meant for me.
Not to mention that my bishop had in a sense already told me to "cast down my nets" a few months ago, and I kind of gave up, a bit like Peter and the apostles. Hearing Elder Holland was a bit like a chastisement from the Lord, and reminded me of my duty. My nets are gone forever. I can't turn back.
I've also been trying really hard to teach from my heart, and listen to what the spirit wants me to say, not just what I want to say. There is no specific right answer for a specific question. And I'm trying to do it in spanish. Its so hard though. It's like I'm fine tuning one radio station with my right hand, and another with my left hand, trying to get them both to sync up and be clear. But every so often, when I get them synced up, it just flows. The words just come, the testimony is from my heart, and its such a powerful feeling. I'll admit I'm a cry baby.
That's all for this week I believe, 
P.S. I'm not getting any dear elders, so if you are using that then make sure you are picking the Dominican MTC and not the Provo one.
Love you guys,
Elder Nichols



Friday, August 19, 2011

I am in the Domincan Republic. 8/19/11

Dear Family and Friends,
So I'm here in the Dominican Republic. The food is really good. There are only about fourty of us here at the MTC. Actually here its called the CCM. Centro de blah blah Misioneros hahahahaha. Had to take 3 flights to get here. Traveled about 15 hours yesterday it was great. I don't really know what to expect. It's really hot here and our teachers are natives that speak very fast. It's going to be tons of fun though. I got a new companion (again) and his name is Elder Van Tussenbrook. He is pretty cool. I don't have a whole lot else to tell you guys. We get dear elders once a week which is cool. But I don't know how you get it here. I'm sure some smart people can play around on the website and figure it out.  
 
Love you guys.
Elder Nichols

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Truth Restored. 8/11/11

Dear San Diego
It's been another crazy week. I have 25 minutes to type so here goes. Four square is great. Volleyball is great. Cleaning toilets on service days is great. I've gained 15 lbs (honest),  and there is no end in sight to the food. I switched districts (finally) and my new mtc box is 314. You dont need anything else to write me. Mike neal has sent me 3 dear elders, and andrea has sent me 1. Thanks to the stake president as well for writing me, it meant a lot. Same with Heidi Oliver. PLEASE WRITE ME :) I love you guys a lot. i want to write you guys individually by hand, but i need your addresses!!!!! I got my final hep A shot, and typhoid. The nurse gave me typhoid for free hahaha. The MTC President, yes president, called me into his office to congratulate me on my return to the MTC, and we talked about my family a little bit. It was great. Oh and I'm supposed to leave the 18th, but my visa hasn't cleared yet, so its going to be down to the wire on this one. Otherwise i'll continue to train here for another 6 weeks.
Spiritual thoughts. In my old district, I was struggling. I've read the Book of Mormon, Preach my Gospel, and had more life experiences to help me prepare. I feel ready and pumped up. But my companion was just here to joke around with the other elders, and no matter what i tried to get him interested or focused nothing worked. I set up lesson plans, wrote scripts, quizzed him, tutored him, shared spiritual thoughts, talked about his life and mine, and nothing was making any change. I was so mad. I was thinking he is wasting his time, he is wasting my time, and he is wasting the Lord's time. This isn't fair. He is holding me back. I can't do any of this stuff without a companion. But the most aggravating part for me was how even when i thought i was justified in my anger because I'm trying to be obedient and he is holding me back, all i could feel was this frustrating guilt for being angry at him. I know that the Holy Ghost was telling me to have compassion, patience, and most of all Charity for this young elder. I realized that right now, maybe he needs friends here to goof around a little bit to keep him here, and that I was being too hard on him. Sometimes the hardest people to love are the ones that need it the most. I knew then that I needed to repent. Funny how the spirit works some times.
I want you all to know that I know this Gospel is true. I'm doing everything in my power to study not just the Gospel, but myself, and figure out who the Lord wants me to be. Throughout my whole life the main objective after spending a few years in a place and moving again and again has been to just fit in. To constantly reinvent myself and my interests just to make friends and belong somewhere. This is no longer the case. This Gospel makes me confident and strong. I don't have to lower my standards or be a chameleon to fit in with other Elders.  I can stand up and stand out without a problem, because I know that I am backed by the Savior and legions of angels. I have found myself in the Gospel.
We are learning to teach people and not discussions. I have a great memory, but it can only help so much. I have to learn how to tailor lessons to individual people, and help them to liken the scriptures to themselves. It's a very interesting experience, and I am so excited for it.
Brothers and Sisters, the Gospel has been restored, and its more than just a little blurb about having a prophet. The truth has been revealed about the nature of God, the purpose of the family, the role of prophets, priesthood authority and so much more. God is not some mystical being that is everywhere but nowhere he is our father. Literally our father. Families are eternal and satan is doing everything he can to destroy them. That is why we need prophets. They give us direction and help us understand the gospel and defend what is sacred to us.
Yo se que Dios es nuestro amoroso padre celestial. Yo se que nos envió a la tierra para aprender y progresar. Él tiene un cuerpo de hueso y carne, y quiere que tenemos esto tambien. Quiere que regresamos con Él. Yo se que el Libro de Mormón es veradadero, y si le leerán y orarán, el espíritu santo confirmará el verdad en sus corazones.
con mucho amor
Elder Nichols

Thursday, August 4, 2011

"When Satan reminds you of your past, remind him of your future." 8/4/11

August 4, 2011
 
Dear San Diego,
It's been a crazy week for me. My life has been turned completely upside down. I want you all to know, that I know without a shadow of a doubt that the Lord answers our prayers. I know that he knows my heart, and has given me a second chance to serve him. I have really been struggling here the last couple of days. I wasn't using my time very wisely before I left, and I have been wondering whether or not I'm prepared to be here. How and why did the Brethren approve me? My companion and room mates here are pretty rowdy, and its hard for me to focus. I've felt the spirit, but I've been having trouble feeling happy, and feeling that fire of missionary work. Right after I was set apart, President Morgan told me "Your past is your past", but i was still struggling over my mistakes and wondering why i'm here. But then a miracle happened. There is no other way to explain it. My teacher Brother Toone, pulled me out of class. I have only seen him two or three times now, and I am pretty quiet in class. I try to wait to be prompted by the spirit before opening my mouth, and i spend a lot of time thinking. So Brother Toone pulls me out of class and starts talking to me in spanish, asking me how my spanish is, and how I feel about being with the new elders and such. I told in some spanish some english that i had studied 2 years and school and worked in a restaurant with hispanics and such. But i was fine with teaching the other new elders, and that i just figured it was good practice for me to review, and preparation for when i would be training others out in the field.  This whole time we are walking around the hall down the stairs... and I'm talking back in the little spanish I know. Eventually we end up at some desk where he says something to a lady, and she asks me to sit down, and starts asking me in spanish to tell her about my family, what i like to do, what i did yesterday etc. I answered in spanish, kinda wondering what the heck is going on. Then she tells me in english that she thinks i'm ready for an intermediate spanish group! I've been here two days! They want me to switch districts, residence halls and everything! On the way back up to class I told Brother Toone that i had been struggling to feel happy, focus, etc, and he said "I don't know why i feel like i need to tell you this, but when Satan reminds you of your past, remind him of your future." Kind of like President Morgan had said. I'll admit I broke down. I know that the spirit prompted him.
Leaving last year was the most pain I have ever felt, and has left a mark on me emotionally and spiritually. I'm grateful too for everything I learned and I know it was the right thing, but its hard now that I'm back to not be a little afraid or paranoid of it happening again. To know that the spirit prompted Brother Toone and told him that I was doing well, and ready for an intermediate group was just emotionally very powerful. I'm still not sure how its all going to happen, but my mtc box will change again hahaha. Wish me luck.
con much amor
Elder Nichols