Dear Family and Friends,
Not really sure what to write hahaha. my brain is completed exhausted from conference, and there is really no way I could write in this one letter all the things I learned and felt. Not to mention what I am learning from my companion, the spirit, investigators, and calling as a district leader. However, I would like to share an experience I had last night.
After conference we went to visit a less active brother who told us he would go to conference after our last lesson. He recognized that he has promised us, and gave us his reasons for not going. I listened for a long time, nearly an hour, as he told me about how his wife went to conference but he didn´t, how other members of the ward had offended him, about how he hadn´t been doing anything wrong but others break lots of commandments, and much, much, much more. I did my best to listen with love and listen to the spirit and ask an inspired question. I asked about his marriage, and if his wife knows he loves her. he said yes, but then described all their arguments and other problems. I asked if he thinks Christ knows he is a Christian, and he said yes, declaring that he has never lost communication with God.I think he probably prays to God to fix everyone else, but I don´t think he is listening to what God may be trying to say to him. Personally, every time i recieve personal revelation, the spirit is telling me what i need to do to better myself or my circumstances, such as getting to work cleaning my house instead of just asking the office elders to move us to a different one.
A different problem is that his outward actions are not reflecting his supposed inner commitment. he is not allowing his knowledge of the gospel to penetrate his heart and shine forth through his countenance and behavior. it is one thing to know the gospel is true, and yet entirely different to be true to the gospel. He is a good guy that is very nice to us and loves to let us share some scriptures, but the scriptures are absolutely useless, nothing more than inkblots on scratchpaper, if we don´t apply what they contain. My friends, we must be the change we wish to see in the world.
Elder Nichols
